Hello,
Where should I start. The vitals of me my status in life. Because that is no longer about me. Or should I start with the elements of me. My core?
I am now 30 years old. I have two children - Zoe 4.5 years and Matthew, 2.5 years old. I love my children more than life itself they provide me with such wonder and possibility.
I digress.
Originally from Brisbane we moved to Sydney 15 months ago and for the first time in my life I feel real and whole.
I have a husband Jason who loves us. And works very hard for the family every day. He has a fantastic work ethic and is a very strong smart man.
I love the gym - I live for my step class which brings me such inner joy i have not known since the days of raving! And that was drug induced. It is the only place i can go and forget about the world outside. Here I have met some wonderful friends. You will meet them in time.
I am a student studying commerce at uni - I should be studying psychology or nutrition and health related subjects for that is where my heart lies. Otherwise I am a stay at home mum. Which is wonderful - because I can go to the gym and be with the kids, but bad. Life in Sydney is VERY expensive. Indeed sometimes I feel like a noose wrapped around my neck and is slowly being pulled.
My core value is a strong bond to family - which is not shared by my husband. My mother is my BEST friend. She is like an angel who seems to touch people and bring out the best in them. She is the most uncondtitional person you will ever meet. She makes people happy. And I am the luckiest girl in the world to be her daughter. To be hers, that she is mine. Although she is no-ones. And I am her absolutely hardest project. It seems impossible to her to see me happy. I am not sure what it is. I have trouble being happy when i am with her. Something I will explore over the coming months.
I must go - my daughter has an aweful cough - perhaps asthma. We are going to the doctors.... To be continued....